Deepest thought.

"What is "real"? How do you define "real"?"

-Morpheus

Dear Chloe,

Many things had happened during the time when I didn't write to you.. Good ones, and well maybe bad ones. I'm no longer the one I used to be, Chloe. I feel something in me is changing, and I have made such a big difference between who I am now , and who I was. I don't regret a thing, instead, I have never been this thankful. : )

I knew that I knew nothing, so I searched for what they called as the 'truth' which I "should " know. Turned out, I did know n o t h i n g, indeed, I was just being a snob who thought that I knew a lot, and surprisingly, most of us are being so. : ) Through the internet, I found out lots and lots of stuffs which ordinary people seldom seek for. And guess what, I was stunned by all those informations I obtained, cool-scary-interesting-irritating, all are packed into one. But instead of being afraid to go on, i was lured by all the 'truth' I finally knew, and I chose to keep on learning, believe me, I've never found something this meaningful beside music.

People say, knowing too much is not a good thing sometimes, but for me, it is one of the blessings I got. Many people hate the truth, many people say it's not a bright stuff, but the truth will always be the truth, we can't run from it, it's the reality, hidden reality I may say. A wise man ever said, "We can't unlearned what we have learned ", it's true indeed. We can't pretend that we don't know. There's a little spark in this chest telling me to spread it to everyone, but when I think about it all over again, I know how useless and pointless it might be, because so sad but true, people have been living in a realm, a realm that has been made up by a thick fog, which is blinding them from the truth, and people who "know", like us, will be judged by the society as the weird ones, or worse -- lunatic ones. People hate what they don't know, that's the awful truth.

There are a lot of people who know more than me, I admit, I'm just a beginner truth seeker after all. But still, I'm gonna make best of what I've known, and try to value it more and more. I'm kinda curious on how deep the rabbit hole will go. : )) And I'm gonna search for a balance between knowing, learning, accepting and living. It's not going to be easy, but I believe the result will be worth it. : ))

"I'm trying to free your mind, Neo. But I can only show you the door. You're the one that has to walk through it."

-Morpheus

"The Matrix is a system, Neo. That system is our enemy. But when you're inside, you look around, what do you see? Businessmen, teachers, lawyers, carpenters. The very minds of the people we are trying to save. But until we do, these people are still a part of that system and that makes them our enemy. You have to understand, most of these people are not ready to be unplugged. And many of them are so inert, so hopelessly dependent on the system that they will fight to protect it."

-Morpheus

We are all living in the matrix, aren't we? : )